It's been One year!

Wow, one year has already passed since decompression surgery! It honestly feels like yesterday...I can still picture it like I am living it and remember the pain like it was yesterday!

Things have improved greatly, I have migraines occasionally but not near as often as before surgery, all the numbness in my limbs and fingers have subsided completely, I find myself able to think clearly most of the time now, and I'm not couch bound anymore!

Things have changed a lot tho too...the way I handle things, perceive things, I have horrible nightmares from surgery now, I still cant sleep on my back due to pain, I cant really touch my neck without severe pain actually, weather used to be my favorite thing but now I hate change in weather... it causes me to have horrible head pain now! The pain control is still an issue for me but its not a fight I am willing to give up on...to much to lose! This surgery has allowed me to gain back things I thought I had lost in life...I was asked not to long ago if I would do the surgery again if I knew the results...well each day I change my mind so as for today I say "yes"...but ask me tomorrow! :)

Even with all the changes that this surgery has done to me I am grateful for the time I get to spend with my family and friends! I am so happy I am able to sit and enjoy time with others instead of confining myself and family at home! Being a couch potato wasn't much fun I have to admit!

I am blessed to have experienced the surgery and feel halfway human again, but I am still having a hard time adjusting to life with the "New brain" and all the new symptoms! This surgery gave me a chance to enjoy life again and be the mother to my children I thought I would never be again! I am thankful for that and ever grateful! Its been a wild ride this first year! Without the love and support from my family and friends and complete strangers I would not be where I am today! Truly feeling blessed, overwhelmed, joyed, and terrified at the same time! LOL...who knew that could happen!!